Apparently, I am a warrior, not a loser.
Yet like a guilt-ridden addict, I become an abuser.
An abuser incarcerated by his ambition.
I am my warden and I beg for thy permission.
Trap me forever.
Sever my passion and shield me from the terror.
The terror around inadequacy.
Sever my passion, lest I shall rise,
I shall rise again, only to fall theatrically.
Sever my passion, for hope, is a wicked mistress,
Heartbreak concealed by adrenaline is my recipe for distress.
My ego demands that I dust myself back up,
But she doesn’t know, the comfort, of being the failing duck.
Everything between stepping up and stepping back,
The ill-fated duel between abstain and react.
Vedant Bhardwaj Singh is a first-year law student at Hidayatullah National Law University, with a deep interest in creative writing.
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