When the meaning of this life is to be happy,
I wonder if I could choose to be happy.
Would it be a lot easier if I just got married,
After all it is just getting married.
It’s not like I could not have sex with my wife,
But I would never satisfy my wife.
There’s a difference, do you see?
For she could never see into me.
A wife, a car, a house and two kids.
Oh go away, you hollow bids.
Don’t you think I want that?
A normal life and this and that?
But this thing in the middle of my chest,
Honesty to self is its behest.
When I lay myself on a man’s shoulder,
Or when I share a lingering kiss,
My heart does skip a few beats.
I like it just the way it is,
But oh humanity, what a mess of society this is.
What threat am I to you anyway?
What broken sanctity are you trying to protect?
Sometimes I wonder,
would it be a lot easier if I just got married?
After all it is just getting married.
I could still dabble into this, and my wife wouldn’t hear a hiss.
An incognito hookup or maybe just a kiss.
But that is not what I want to be.
Probably, an easier life is just not for me.
Mandar Gupte, 24, is currently working in an Adivasi community development organisation called Disha Kendra. He tweets at @gupte_mandar and you can find him on Instagram at mandargupte93.
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